Its a hard knock life

We ugly girls hav it bad. We have the worst luck....we also don get special favours the beautiful ones do. We are the ones that actually make the beautiful ones look good!!we are the ones they are compared to....
In fact research shows that beautiful girls are more likely to be successful than ugly ones...like we didn have enough already!
In fact the research authenticates all my views on life...dark n pessimistic tho they r....they r sad but true....
research also shows beautiful girls are likely to earn more than an ugly one...and more likely to b successful fast...
So what do we ugly girls do??
form an ugly girls club!ask for a quota!lol...hey we are bein discriminated against here!
besides we are more likely to pay more dowry than beautiful girls....hee hee....
Tho im lafin bout it,ther is somewher in me wistfulness and weariness.....

"beautiful girl, stay with me...."
-INXS

The Importance Of Being Mal

We Mals a.k.a malyalees are a clanish group. We are the hippest people in town n know how to get down n dirty...in more ways than one.
The men are characterised by acute MCP behaviour n extraordinary amounts of testosterone.The women are feminists and fighters thru n thru.
We mal women are accused of being control freaks...(jus an fyi)
Mals are known for their activist behavior.quite a no. of NGO workers and activists are mal.And thats the good side.
The bad side - we hav progressed too far too soon. We are known by the most morally corrupt behaviour, esp among men.Egs - no of affairs among married couples and the general behaviour of Mal men.One mal is always another mals worst enemy.a mal is a best friend and the worst enemy to another.
But kno wats great bout bein mal, apart from our ability to take over the world and give the marwaris a run for their money?
We mals hav an air of our own (atleast the ones who are outside kerala). When we walk in, the world takes notice.We are among the top movers and shakers. Some of us mite just be the ones in the background but we r definitely in a position where things would fall apart if we weren doin our job.
and thats y if u tell people u r a mal, they go - oh u r a mal? vr viewed with jealousy...and to a certain extent also by wariness....
- Thamburatti

Regret

Regret and guilt are worms that eat at the core of an apple....it leaves the outside relatively intact....
Regret makes you wanna change your whole life...makes you wish you hadn done wat you did...starts a whole blame game with the self...and the ego defense mechanism and rationalisation by the use of a 'sour grapes' attitude doesnt help....
guilt is a step worse...bcos guilt is due to an act of commission while regret is due to an act of ommission....

wat are my regrets?
>that i didn take up engineering or IT.

why is that my biggest regret?
bcos things would hav fallen into place if i had.
i wouldn b facin uncertainty this way
could hav achieved more

bein foolish and a rebel without forethought i took up arts.....my goals demand more than an arts degree..naive as i was i thought that the world is flat and i could reach the same goals even with an arts degree....
I stand corrected.

Gyan geisha

Gyan geisha says: Two reasons why women are jaded: Men and love....

What does the gyan geisha do?
Amuses others and herself by takin note n bringing attention how weird life is. laughs at the irony of life.
she is the one standing at the cliff near the stormy sea and lafing......
She never falls in love.
she cant afford to.
she yearns the comfort of complete dependence but its a luxury she cant afford.
she hates the role shes given.but the pain keeps her alive.the awareness that she cant have wat others have makes her bit more sensitive and sees things the way others dont.
she is weary of bein jaded, of watchin others laugh when she can only afford a wry smile.....weary of the independence that she has....weary that she can only dream of forced dependence in the arms of the man she loves...who loves her the way she wants him too yet in ways that surprise her......

Another one bites the dust

Call me jaded.another one bites the dust...wat am i talkin bout?friendship.I hav always valued friends in my life a lot.I owe some of them my life.
Today i walked away without lookin back.I had to.Im always left behind....i dedicate this memory tracer to my friend...he knows who he is....he never figured in my blogs but in the end he has.
I don kno y i got emotional.i had promised myself id never let anyone hurt me...n after my bf left this was the second person....i had broken too many promises.
He will always remain my friend...n im sure he knows he can pick up the phone n call me as a last resort...but only as a last resort...i will b the eleventh hour man...
wen i said goodbye i meant it...bcos wen i pull the rope i pull it hard...thers only so much i can take....
Thanx for everything.
Goodbye my friend....

"Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side"

two things...

Two things bout me:

I love weddings but hate marriage

Im everybody’s but nobody’s

I love weddings bcos of the excitement it entails…. its like the calm before the storm…. or the cool breeze before a strong gust of wind or the zephyr that is so amazing, rite before the hurricane. It all feels like decking up the goat before it’s taken for the sacrifice…. i hate marriage bcos of wat it entails: responsibility, fear and some amt of incomplete trust n faith if u r in a love marriage…cos truly life and men give no guarantees!

Im everybody’s, cos im everybody’s friend…. but im nobody’s…cos no one can say- ‘she’s mine’. I don’t think id ever trust anybody completely to let them say that im thers…. maybe I haven found the rite person yet to be somebody’s.


“its funny how one word can set off so many thot processes”

My friend Maddy

My friend maddy is quite…. one of a kind. He looks 30 when he is actually 26. He is a typical UP babu who looks like he’s the father of two kids and has a wife who wears her pallu over her head! (Hee hee he’s gonna hit the roof when he reads this!) He sounds like a lecturer and hee hee has a mind with a twist of sorts! He talks philosophy and alternative (ahem) topics like they r the same but I know which is more important to him! He breaks promises but is very sweet…and knows how to make u feel better.

Why write bout maddy?

Bcos I am thankful for friends like him…Thankful for the new friends in my life…like the ever-bubbly anoo, ever-steady noy, makes-me-smile al, always-ther-wen-u call sudhi and the others that are as important but I cant recall bcos im writin this post from kerala.