i love you

Dostet Darum (farsi)

For you a thousand times over....

These r the lines in the book that has made me think about relationships....
friendships,relationships with parents and children,between a couple....even the relationship between strangers....sometimes u r the mosr grateful for a strangers presence when in trouble....
when does a relationship between strangers mutate to become a relationship of two acquaintances and then finally a friendship?
Trust me you find friends in the strangest places and in the strangest ways.....

love letter

My love,
All i c when i close my eyes is u.i c u in my dreams.i keep wishing u wer here.u r everywher to me.....whenever i c a happy couple the emptiness is more profound.i cannot forget the first time we met...how u smiled...sitting behind u on ur bike while u tried to pretend you were the greatest rider ever : )
oh sweetheart do u think of me?i look at ur picture n smile...n wen im down all i need is one word from u n im smilin thru the day....u make me smile...u kno me inside out the way i kno u...im dreaming in classes n think of wat ud said the previous day....n replay it in my mind...u r so patient n understanding...listening to me crib....flirting like v wer teenagers n in love for the first time....i love the magic n the sparks we share...
i wake up with a smile....n in anticipation of talking to u....cos wen v do the roof mite fall onme n i wudn kno...or care...bcos its such moments tht matter to me n cherish....
take care darling....

forever yours
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wow tht ws the toughest thing todo-- writin a loveletter!i now hav newfound respect for lovers....how the hell do they manage writin loveletters....i cant...maybe im not emotional enuf to write one...i kept lafin while writin it....i think i prefer humour...its easier...
ok in reality the first time i met the only guy i felt anything remotely close to possible attraction he was busy attacking a sandwich.n he tried running over a dog in his attempt to be the cool biker dude...lol
this piece was a real struggle....

the kite runner

ive been reading the kite runner by khalid hosseinin (durin classes...n bookless in baghdad by shashi tharoor at home!).....
wat i loved in this story was the human interest...but before i talk bout tht i must mention tht i loved the last line of the acknowledgement which went -- i will always love u roya jan....
i love the fact tht amir married soraya even tho she had a "tainted" past....n hes brutally honest to agree tht it cud b bcos he had secrets of his own....but it still remains a fact tht he did something tht ws to b appreciated..the book brings out many kindsa relationships....amir n his father,amir n soraya, amir n his best friend hassan....who would do anything for him...n yet its this servitude n unconditional love tht acts as a catalyst to the guilt trip amir is on....for lettin down his friend.v also the mentor-protege relationship bw amir n rahim khan.
amir loves soraya even tho she cannot bear any children...n even he cant deny tht the emptiness is acting like cancer of sorts in their relationship....
love the use of words of endearment like jan n khannum......its the eastern version of ma cherie....n takes u back to the age of persian princes n princesses....

movies.....

i do not have a favourite movie as such, but i do hav a fetish for classics....

mmm i love gone with the wind...wud love to own the cd someday
breakfast at tiffanys
roman holiday
casablanca
french kiss
my fair lady
sabrina
great expectations
bed of roses
while u were sleeping
legends of the fall
wuthering heights
vanity fair
sense n sensibilty
emma

maybe wen harry met sally if im in the mood...
i like city of the angels cos of the song iris
n practical magic for the song "this kiss"......
oh yeah romeo + juliet...not much but like it wen im in the mood...
the princess bride
pride n prejudice
moonstruck
far n away
circle of friends
someone to watc over me..
sound of music


n others like
good bad n ugly
indiana jones
wizard of oz

will add more wen i think of em....

what i saw....

today i saw something that really affected me the way it shudn have...i saw guy beatin up his wife/sis/mother...they did it in public and she was lying on the pavement and he was kicking her...and all i could do was watch in horror and despair....because one part of me wanted to go n beat up the guy n the other the more practical one which prevailed told me that even if i tried anything there was a gud chance he wud manhandle me bcos he was in an extremely emotional (anger) n maybe drunken state...i jus stopped (n this was in indiranagar mind u) n wondered wat to do...the lady fainted n all i cud do was stand on the pavement across the road n stare....some men saw the distress in my face n saw tht she had fainted, n rushed to her side....i walked further down the road n turned round to c if people wer helping her....wen i saw tht they did i left...(atleast i think they did)

i really wanted to beat up the guy...but the sad irony is the fact tht no woman cudve stopped him...unless i were 8 inches taller and 60 % of body wt were visible muscles to intimidate the guy....

committment

is it surprising im scared of committment....i hyperventilate wen any friendship goes further or the next step....my biggest fear is marriage....i don think i cud ever handle it....

i am romantic enuf to think bout marriage but wen push comes to shove id b gone before somebody even said marriage...

but ther is something bout committment tht is comforting....it always reminds me of the song from the serial mad bout u.....esp the lines --

"lets take each others hands,
as we jump into the final frontier"

marriage -- the final frontier.....the supposed last step wen u goin step by step, lookin for the next step....suddenly u hv reached the final next step n tht is marriage...

relationships.....

How do u end a relationship? How do u save urself yet continue loving the one you love? how do u enjoy the one u love n yet not lose urself in the process cos the demands r too much?
Hmm i think it would b wise to end it before it ends you.....you mite hate yourself for it....mite miss the person too...but whom would you miss more - yourself or him/her?
A relationship is about bringin out the best in each other and not supressing each others well tagged traits.....
Its about loving the other and accepting the other for wat they are....

finer things in life.....

i like the finer things in life....
a bottle of chardonnay and some french cuisine,classical composition/concerto in a restaurant that has a mediterranean ambience... :)
so does that make me a difficult person to please as my parents rue?
nope cos sometimes there are other things that makes the experience complete.....
somehow it comes down to love huh??
but i guess love makes u blind to so many things cos the feelin is of bein etherised...its a good ether...sometimes u hav to b crazy to survive this life....similarly sometimes u hav to be etherised to survive life.....
what other fine things do i like?
good clothes....branded stuff..hee hee...yes i admit!!
diamonds....life style products....crystal jewellery....travel....
i like stuff that r different,not common,sometimes somethin that stands out...
like this watch i bought for my bday two yrs back -- its a fast track that is oddly shaped...like a paralleogram....
y do i like stuff like that??cos i believ it reflects my personaity -- a rebel, who doesn conform to societys rules, who is different from others, believes she is one of a kind.....

What makes me smile....

What makes me smile?
mmm.....
the song "u got away with me", by Shania Twain
certain romantic songs...
al...i miss ur silly jokes u dodo...
teasing a certain bandhor (my only friend in coll who i appreciate....sometimes!)....oops a PETA violation!lol....
throwing a verbal curveball at a certain male friend of mine....who thinks hes the next big thing, but the only big thing bout him is that hes a big prick!!lol...u kno who u r ; )
i miss my sisters- sherly, maggie, smi, shruthi, vaish, arch....(pls tell me if ive forgotten anybody..) if im feelin down i jus hav to pick up the phone n call em.....
reading gone with the wind....
reading a cute quote.....
wen my bro buys me a pack full of assorted cakes from sweet chariot for rakhi......
reading my bros letter for rakhi....
harmless flirting wit a mad (!) friend of mine.....
memories of school n coll....esp of the times v sat at the BBC n drank coffee.....
memories of pondy trip...oooh bitter sweet...
going crazy n nutty at CCD n KFC....


Like strawberry wine and seventeen
The hot July moon saw everything
My first taste of love oh bittersweet
Green on the vine
Like strawberry wine

- Strawberry wine, Deana Carter.