Am i a satanist?

Am i a satanist jus bcos ive wondered sometimes wether satan was the true god?
jus bcos i wonder wat if the jews r rite and jesus wasn the messiah?

i admit i am quite attracted to the dark side.....

I read this article in the mal magazine called vanitha of how a boy was so influenced by demonlogy and satanism that he would make blood sacrifices and wear the cross upside down. apparently satanism is quite rampant in kerala.

so am i bad jus cos i cover all angles? bcos i think scientifically n ask the 'wat if' ques?

y do i or anybody rational find demonlogy, satanism and witchcraft so exciting? is it cos its forbidden? or cos u kno that a lot is at stake?

i still hav no idea where i stand...ther is one part of me that says all this stuff doesn exist n another believes n says 'hey heres somethin exciting i can try'....