Prude and prejudice

Addictions......am i addicted somethin?hell yeah!
i seem to find it so difficult to remain unplugged from the net.is that one of the confessions of a dangerous mind?i would love to do a survey on that....
When this struck me as a problem i sat n tried to,summoning all powers of rational thinking and logic,figure why....is it because ive turned into "one of them".....the ones id swore id never be?
is it cos i don't seem to have a social life apart from the online one?the one where u hav guys asking for ur no or for ur picture n where they subtly seem to ask wether u r interested in a one night stand with no supposed strings attached except the lingering guilt of doin somethin u were told not to n fear of gettin caught...or the fear of getting pregnant or waitin for the lightning to hit u cos uve been a bad girl....
well here ive to admit how naive ive been bout sex in the city....coming from a convent college or one of those girls college i assumed the sample represented the crowd....n i ws so mistaken....i also admit my friend who sounded me off on how prevalent pre-marital sex was,was right....yes allen u wer right.
Am i shocked that the world has changed so much?Do i cry n drag my feet cos my mama ws wrong?or do i feel like a huge prude cos im a 22yr old virgin who's still traditional in her views?(am i?or is it that im more driven by drives of ambition than sex drives....)
right now i think im more of a confused person from the 80s generation who was introduced to liberalism gradually....we did wear levis jeans but we watched doordarshan's programmes like chitramala n shanthi n swabhimaan too.....we were there when star was introduced in india....
but what makes me sit up n think is how men have been able to adjust to the change in the freedom n liberal behaviour....which isn very shocking cos it was always the mans world....but i see women ready to torch other women who go with the flow....when in some dark prudish corner of their minds they want to be the women they torch....i think its the conflict in their minds n the lack of the ability to decide wether they wanna go black or white...a conflict between wantin and the freedom to go wild n to let go (cos girls jus wanna hav fun!) and the issues of what the people wud think,is it right?n all the ifs n buts n the fear of the consequences of bein a rebellion.....
my advice:listen to ur heart....if u aren held back by religious issues then it shudn b too difficult for u....but remember if u aren like me-who can be wild yet knows her limits or if u dont care for limits then ther is no difference between a wolf n a dog (assumin all men r dogs!)...but if u r a pewrson wit limits then u got to watch out for the wolf at ur door....rhett butler n william darcy mite sound romantic but thers a world of difference between their true existence in a novel or book n in real life.....